Oceans: Where Feet May Fail
Perhaps I am stereotypical to most post grad, christian, American girls who's favorite worship songs do include Hillsong's "Oceans. It is a highly anointed song, but I have always meant ever lyric from the bottom of my heart. My worship is also my prayer, I wholeheartedly mean what I sing. Oftentimes I will stop and observe the congregation singing and wonder, "What if we all meant it." How different would the world be?
Both of these songs talk about entering unchartered territory. Sailing into the unknown, because that is where ships belong, at sea away from their ports.
"Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever you would call me."
This is not just an adventure of traveling into the unknown and doing cool things with Jesus. Being lead without boarders requires immense self-sacrifice. It means in a an instant the plan could change, and you could be sailing off into an entirely new direction, destination, at a pace you do not get to set. I am type A, and the idea of plans changing use to really throw a wrench into my constant turning wheels. I find comfort in knowing where I am going and what the goals are. When you work for God, that luxury seldom occurs. The idea of being sent where-ever at a moment's notice throws me off enough, then you throw in walking on water?! Do you know what kind of faith and laser focus that requires?!!
When you find yourself in unchartered territory, even the regular shifting of the sea can seem like the fiercest storm. You will find yourself doubting your ability. (We never feel fully ready for anything, and I think God likes it that way because we are less prone to taking over.) Then you add in all the other people around you who seem to be pro's and you begin comparing yourself to them (Galatians 6:4). Pretty soon all the noise in your head makes it hard to hear the Holy Spirit and voice of God. No wonder Peter sank when he became distracted by his surroundings rather than the one who controls them.
" I will call upon your name
and keep my eyes above the waves
For I am yours
and you are mine."
That is what prevents you from drowning and makes you brave. Setting your eyes, thoughts, and daily goals on the one who set you in the ocean to begin with. You have to trust God, knowing that he set you apart and has called you forth into the waves for "such a time as this." You may not know your purpose, but you can stand in the fact that you do belong there and He will use you. In fact, out of your insecurities he will be glorified because all will know that it is not you who is succeeding but Christ in you. His power is made perfect in weakness, flaws, and imperfection (2 Corinthians 12:9). If you are type A or tend to be more of a perfectionist, the idea of presenting yourself, a project, or launching something before you have everything ready, prepared, and all the kinks worked out probably makes you feel a little nauseous.
Excellence is my standard, in all things. So this attempt at a brave lifestyle has been one that has caused much anxiety. Adjusting your ideals, response, and work is incredibly difficult but so freeing. Letting go of the responsibility to control everything has released my spirit to be free. The ocean may rock my boat, storms may appear as if they are going to capsize me, but the captain of my ship rules the water. The oceans answer to my Dad, he will never let me sink. Therefore I have confidence in the unknown, uncharted, unexpected, and unplanned. I may not be able to see the map because it is too complicated for me to understand, but God does and he is the captain of my ship. Even if we appear lost in the abyss of the ocean, I am not alone. He is with me and he will take care of me, I cannot fail.
Imagine a generation unafraid. Leaving everything behind at a moments notice. Uninhibited by the unknown. Unmoved by the impossible. Chewing at the bit to be used by God however HE see's fit. An egoless army set out on missions of obedience, regardless of what that may mean. A people who can make sacrifices with ease, because they know who gave it to begin with. The diciples all reached this level of functioning with Christ, and they changed the world. 2000 years later we are still marveled at their lives and how God used them. What if we stopped standing in awe, and did the same? It only took 12 men to get the world buzzing. I envision a generation, unshakable, unstoppable, and unencumbered by storms, oceans, or waves from what God has called them to do and the dreams he has placed in their hearts. The entire world would shift if influenced by a generation like that, and it all starts with you and I.